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Catalog Number 2015.02.0053
Object Name Letter
Date 1805
Title 1805 March 11 Maria Nicholson to Margaretta Brown
Scope & Content Letter from Maria Nicholson (Washington DC) to Margaretta Brown (Frankfort, KY). Maria was a friend of Margaretta's from New York. She discusses recently seeing Margaretta's husband John and this meeting prompting her to write to her dear old friend, whom she has lately neglected. Nicholson's reason for not writing is due to the sadness she still feels over the death of her father, James Nicholson, who died in 1804. She writes about her sick sister, Adden, gives updates on a mutual friend, M. Templeton, and how she looks forward to seeing Margaretta in the fall in New York.


Washington March 11th 1805

I told your Husband and I told him true that if I could hold a pen today I would write to you, for I could not bear your suspicions that because I had not written to you in a long time I had ceased to love you. have you foundation for such an assertion? indeed you have not. Think my dear Margaretta what I have passed through since last we conversed together. I could as well have plucked out my eye, as to have written for several months, and my heart is still sad, at times very sad, and the habit of six or seven Months requires an exertion to break, that I am almost inca-pacitated for - The unthinking part of the world who have chosen to give currency to reports, me about which I daresay Mr. Brown will inform you, say I am in love, because I look grave and do not join in the unmeaning simpers of those around me be it so, they may say and believe what they please, I would not take the
the trouble to undeceive them, but you who like me have lost a most tender and affectionate Parent, will account for my gravity in another way; I do not envy their mirth, I would not exchange feelings with them for all the world could offer me, for though I am grave, I am not less happy, and look forward to a blissful period when I shall be reunited to my beloved Father never more to be separated, and what reflection like this can animate those who never look beyond an hour, will not this belief indemnify us for all our sufferings here below!I knew I should write you a very serious letter, and perhaps which would grieve me to do, bring pain to your bosom, but how can I write otherwise when every thought every recollection with which my mind is teemed, bears upon one point solely - you must excuse me my Friend, you must forgive me -
I am flattered with the hope of meeting you in the Autumn in NYork - dear Friend whose existence and affection neither time nor absence has obliterated form my Heart, with what joy shall I press you to my bosom, so not say; do not think that there are but few there, who wish to see you, you are mistaken, it is not that attachment which is ever spoken about that is strongest, there
there are many in NYork who would delight to see you, and when you would derive pleasure in seeing that never wrote you a line or told you that they loved you - many changes have taken place - some improvements- this world is an ever shifting scene, we must prepare ourselves for every wind that may befall us, and endea-vor to make ourselves as happy as this transient state of things will admit --
My Sister Adden is not in very good health, I feel anxious about her, but am obliged to check myself as often I am too prone to dwell upon mournful subjects - I shall probably go to NYork in April, but lest I should not, write dear Margaretta to me and enclose your letter [page torn] Mr. Gallatin who will certainly be here and will forward it to me. Kiss your two Boys for me, and do not distrust the affectionate attachment of your very sincere Friend Maria Nicholson

M Templeton is very well, surely she does not neglect writing to you, pro=bably you neglect her - as to me I have written to Adden only, all winter, I almost hate the use of my pen You may scold me for it, it is what I merit -

[Address Block]
Mrs. Margaretta Brown
To the care of John Brown, Esq
People Maria Nicholson Montgomery
Jehoiadden Nicholson
Margaretta Mason Brown
Albert Gallatin
Search Terms Mourning
New York, NY